The Beginning

Hi,

Today I am going to start something that I am not sure will be possible. I am going to try to stop drinking alcohol for the month of February.

Writing it down actually makes it sound a little daft, some people give up alcohol completely, so surely I can do it for four weeks and they have a much stronger dependency on it than I do. However, I also know that is isn't going to be easy, which is why I have decided to start a blog. I'm not going to let anyone know about it. Its more for myself than anything and its going to be there purely to give me somewhere when I want to write down how much I'd like a drink or how good I am feeling. A booze free diary as it were.

"But Michael, why even bother giving up alcohol for a month?" I hear you ask. Well other than the fact that I might lose some belly weight, its simple. My dad drinks to excess and always has, and I've come to accept that its probably the thing that will kill him eventually. I'm 28 now and don't want to make the same mistakes as my dad. Or at the very least show to myself that I am not dependent on alcohol, and that it is, just like many of my previous habits, something I have just let get a excessive as of late.

To be honest, that's one of my biggest problems I find it difficult to take things slowly; I rush my food when I eat, when I smoked I smoked 25 a day, and when I did cocaine I did it almost every night. I even drink water by gulping down a pint. I never sip anything. Its not like I'm in a rush either, its just a habit I have and can't seem to break it. The fact that I'm quitting drinking for a month, rather than learning to pace myself, isn't lost on my either.

Why can't I have some self control!?!

Sod it, its a start.